Doctrine of the Trinity
I never believed in love at first sight
until I was blinded by him
on my road to Damascus.
He unmasked this
vision of devotion in me so sweet
that I stumbled out of my darkness
and woke at the feet of his divinity.
His smile made me believe
in the omnipotence of God.
turned the slithering serpents in my stomach
into inebriated butterflies.
In the twinkling of his eyes
I saw earth born out of night
and the same earth crumble beneath the golden light
of his flame.
His hands changed my name
from Simon to Peter to John
the beloved disciple of the Father’s Son.
scribbled scriptures across my back
and erased the tracks
of my skepticism.
Ready for baptism
into his amazing grace
I stood on the banks like the Eunuch
eager to be fed his truth.
A skeleton seeking the keys that unlocked proof
his heaven was real.
His water filled
the empty places in my emotions
that had turned into whine.
The only thing standing between
our love and invincibility
was that matter of time.
Unwilling to relinquish the fiction
I termed my funny feelings as benign,
but upon approaching the god’s altar
I realized I was one in a line.
There beneath the veil of his bliss
was a devil. His kiss
broke like bread and fed five thousand.
His garment had been touched by so many
that the hem became tattered and soiled.
He was offering up his oil
to keep a dozen lamps ablaze.
His parables turned to maze.
His truth turned to lies.
He was a miracle that left me crucified.
The peace of me died.
Father, forgive him.
He knows not who he has crossed.
I began to unravel.
Spiraled backwards in time
searching for the place I last saw my true self;
trying to pinpoint the moment that I left
the road less travelled
and entered the alley where Judas dwelled.
Oh, what a tangled web we weave
when we confuse Heaven and Hell.